i'm going down.

Honestly, I'd prefer you bring me up.

Now is the time where I start to get depressed. As much as my life is awesome, it's not as awesome as you think. My mom died eleven days after I turned fifteen, and the most important people who helped me through it have no idea she died, or that they even helped me.

This is stupid, but the guy I like has no idea I like him, and most likely doesn't like me back. And honestly, I know I flip out when people complain about their boy troubles, but right now I'm super emotional. I think I might be getting my period. Well, whatever.

I honestly can't stand Nicole. With her, she's either bragging about what she got, or complaining about what she didn't get, and it's a little annoying. So yeah, I shouldn't be talking, but she's the first person to say something about my mom, and then like, a week later, she's all "If I'm on GMA, will you come?!" after I bitched her out like, a week and a half before. Yeah, attention seeker much? Just cause I live in Connecticut, which is what? An hour and a half away from the City, doesn't mean I'm gonna have someone take their time off from having a life to go see someone who I've never met before.

Right now, the only thing I'm looking forward to is possibly hanging out with Courtney sometime soon, Camp, Rent, Jonas, and Mitchel. That's it. And my mom can't be here for any of it. :/

AND, people who don't think Cancer is a big deal, here's what I have to say:
Stick that in you fcking juice box and suck it.
Reality check, it IS a big deal.

That's all I'll leave you with dearest blog, goodnight.